Overwhelmed

Human interactions are hard. I can't seem to see eye to eye with certain family members. People think and act differently from how I would expect. Subtleties are hard to detect. Words heard and spoken end up being hurtful. Awkwardness among not so strangers. Awkwardness around people I shouldn't be awkward with. Fear of entering a workforce where I can get into trouble. I have an uncanny way of attracting trouble especially with authority figures. Contradicting personalities. Overthinking, shy, self depreciating, people pleasing introvert in the same mind and body as one who is selfish and has a bad temper. Fear of standing on my own and taking up space. Fear of death. 

I often feel overwhelmed and find it hard to navigate life as a human being.